I had been coming to the park for about 8 months before I met Saundra, not really doing much more than acting the fool (and I do it so well... LOL). I used to log on after work on most nights just to chat and have fun... nothing more. I had had a failed relationship in the park already and wasn't really looking for love.

I remember the day when Saundra and I starting talking seriously as if it were yesterday. Until then we had exchanged the odd hello or goodbye as you do with new people, however this one particular day I had a feeling that something different was happening. Saundra's nickname fitted her perfectly, as she was indeed very shy, but somehow she found the inner strength or determination to make me more aware of her on that occasion. She dropped hints such as "I like a man with long hair" after I had described myself to the park, and it seemed as if she liked me.

We spoke a while in channel, but I noticed that she was extremely shy and bashful, so I PMed her and asked "Is this way better for you?". We spoke for hours that night and soon I was having feelings for Saundra that I had not experienced before, she made me feel wanted and special, by the things she said as we talked night after night into the early hours.

Soon I was madly in love with Saundra, I had not met her, and only had a few pictures of her that she had sent me, but I felt I had known her for years, as if she was a kindred spirit that I had been looking for all along, the missing link in my life. I was totally at ease with her from the start, she never made me feel uneasy or uncomfortable, and she was always so sweet and compassionate on every occasion that we met. I would just love watching her in the park talking to her countless friends, playing and enjoying herself, I felt proud that she wanted me, proud that someone so wonderful and special would consider me to be their soul mate.

Speaking with Saundra on the phone is a sheer joy, she has the softest, sweetest voice I have ever heard, and it is hardly ever raised in even the slightest notion of anger. She exudes compassion and love, and I feel honoured to be part of her life, and not only part of her life, but her children's too, because she has two of the most wonderful kids you could ever wish for. Saundra visited the UK in May of this year, I spent the happiest days of my life during the first week of that spring month, every moment was a moment to treasure and behold. Saundra had just the most beautiful smile I had ever seen and eyes that are without comparison on this earth. When we parted at the airport, I wanted nothing more than to run through the departure gates and get on the plane with her, my eyes were welling up and my heart had dropped to the pit of my stomach. From that moment on I knew that I could not spend the rest of my life without this wonderful human being

When I first found the park I had been in search of somewhere I could just sit and watch, not really wanting to join in, just somewhere I wouldn't be alone at. I saw an article with the park in it and thought i'd try that, since I was to chicken to go into chat room on the blind. when I went in the first time everyone said hi to me, but then they went on with their talking and I was able to watch how they inter meshed their lives and seemed to really care about each other. When i'd been there a few days, they started noticing me and they all seemed to adopt me into thier lives. in fact rattie and bb adopted me into their family.....i was loved for me, it was so new and wonderful. Allan aka justal and I aka too2shy1 met in bbw park. we talked for hours at a time and learned we had a lot in common.... then we graduated to the phone and talked for hours there too!! I knew from the start that I was falling for Allan....even though i'm quite shy and have never been attracted to " bad boys" which for all you who know him, know that Allan is very forward and a prankster in the park....but when I got to know him, he is the most sensitive (sorry to ruin your reputation hun) and sincere man I know. When we met for the first time, the look of love in his eyes, and the ready smile he had, made me feel at ease quickly. I love the way he treats me with such love and respect, they way his beautiful eyes glow when he sees me. the "bad boy" I thought he was when I first found him, isn't really bad at all, he's compassionate and loving and so sensitive. we have many years and miles between us, but when I met him in person I knew that didn't matter. he is more mature than men I know and the miles, well, we have the park thanks to lorrie, to help us with that. I love Allan with all my heart, in fact he carries my heart with him. he has accepted me as I am and my children. he has so much love to give and he proves it daily to me. Allan is moving here in august and we are marrying in september. we will keep ya updated....or join us playing in the park...